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Memories

There were too many moments during our time together when I wished we could have gotten it on video or taken a cute picture of us but now those will be just memories that only US will every truly know and understand. It’s like our little secret with the nature as our witness. From sitting over the lake to watching the stars to the deep talks about life to the unstoppable feelings and emotions we felt to watching over an ocean upside down with the ships a few miles away to laying down on grasses watching the night sky and the planes landing to the crazy things we did and laughed about. It all felt like a fairytale… a dream I will always look back on with a smile on my face, hoping it will put a smile on yours when you remember it too. Because, for once in my life, I am too glad i have spent it with my soulmate..

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The Fall

I love the sky. Everything about it.

The flock of birds flying before sunset

the rays of the sun

the airplanes passing by

the way the clouds roll in before it starts raining

the droplets of rain after months of drought

the wonderful sight of a rainbow that makes the sky extra interesting

the twinkling stars in the darkness of night.

When life gets frustrating and I need to calm myself,

I would look up. I would stare at the clouds

I would appreciate how they form into different shapes

and how hard they resist to be even blown by the wind.

Everything about the sky fascinates me. The sky is my home.

It makes me smile

As it takes all my worries away.

but then I came across the ocean

the wonderful horizon that eats up the sun

the depth that easily became one of my fears

the killer sharks and mermaid tales

the waves that can eat you up.

The ocean is dangerous and scary.

Once I jump off the cliff, I know there is no turning back.

It is either you drown or you swim against the waves

I jumped anyway without any assurance that the fall would be worth it

I fell staring up to the sky

The fall was wonderful, exhilirating even

unfamiliar but it feels like home

Well, it is home cause no matter how hazardous it is to jump off a cliff

I felt completely safe

I never felt happier

Do you know the feeling of flying on earth happy?

That is how I felt. No matter how weird that sounded

I was so focused into my own world that I did not know the fall was so short

I fell… Hard… into the ocean

Or it’s more of I flew… I flew in love

But for the first time in my life

I can completely say that the fall was worth it.

And if there is a chance to do it for the second time

I will do it

again…

and again…

and again…

Midnight thoughts

I run. That is what I do best. The second I start getting too close to someone, I run away. I have even built walls to keep people at a distance. To protect myself from misery. But getting through my wall is what makes me run fast and far. I have this irrational fear of getting too close to someone because I believe that everyone has the capacity to hurt you, but it’s the people you love that can crash you the most. I hate getting hurt. I hate crying. I hate getting left out. I hate feeling weak. I like to believe I am invincible. That nothing can break me apart. But life does not work that way, does it? The higher you stand, the harder it will push you down. The louder you laugh, the harder it will make you cry. You come near me, I leave. You step a little closer, I run so far. Finding a home in something unfamiliar terrifies me so I keep my distance. I run, you run with me. I push you away but you are very determined to stand up and run with me. Well, if you want to get lost, follow me. I’d like to think you are here for all the wrong reasons but I cannot keep denying the fact that you are apparently here for the right ones. But if you are too tired to run with me, just wait… because no matter what happens, I will always run home.