Random Letters

I like writing letters. Whenever I get mad at someone, I do not tell them. I write everything I am feeling on a piece of paper and pour my heart out without them knowing. It has always been better that way. I hate spreading negativity. But right now, I am not mad or something because hey I pledged to spread nothing but positivity not only here but also on all my social networking accounts right? So, let’s get this started! ūüėČ

Dear you…

-I¬†can’t believe it has almost been a year since you¬†left me shattered and I still wanna cry whenever I remember you. I thought of you last night… Of how time flies. Your two youngest puppies are almost a year old and I can’t help but wish you’re still with us. I can still clearly remember how you died. Of how painful it was to see you being revived by the vets and being so damn helpless with the whole situation. As much as I love you, I know I have to let you go. You are in a better place now Chich. Free from all the pain and sickness. Please kiss Kali and Kisses for me. You are so badly missed. And by just writing this, you made me tear up.. Again. ='( Oh what an irreplaceable dog you are…

-They say there are angels in disguise. This time, you are my angel. You have helped me in taking the first step in reaching my dream of backpacking this world. I will help you reach yours too. I know, someday, this will all pay off. Thank you for being such a kind person and for restoring my faith in humanity.

-People come and go. You were one of those people. It has hurt me that you broke your promise of being friends whatever the weather. Well, promises are not always sincere, are they? I am still keeping mine. I value friendships so much. This is why Every time I see you on my feed, I still wish you nothing but happiness. I hope you get everything you want. I always pray for you.

-You took me to the lake and the sea… Only to get drowned… But if I have to do it again… I will do it… again and again

-I always pray that you will stop thinking about what you want. That you have to stop pressuring me with what you want me to be. I am done letting people write my story for me. We only have one life right? Please let me live mine.

-I guess it has been a year or more since the last time we’ve seen each other. Gosh, I miss your company so much but I am so proud and happy that you are going after what you want and that you are finally doing too well on your football games. You know I’d watch your games no matter how boring they are as long as you’d feed me pizza! hehe

-Well I guess I have reached the point where you would stop talking to me. TOo bad I still wanna get a taste of your version of Lasagna and Spaghetti.

-I cannot wait for the day when you will have to move back¬†home. I miss my bestfriend so much. I still dream of that day when we’d talk about our lives over ice cream and take crazy but cute videos and photos together. And why would you come home when I’m out of the countyr? ūüė¶ timing sucks.

-I cannot believe we would actually be friends after our¬†A Journey of Music play. We never really talked that much during our rehearsals. We only got close during the day of the play itself. I am happy we still keep in touch after that musical play and that we have that one connection that binds us… Music… You’re rare. ūüôā

-Do not hate yourself for whatever you are going through right now. Life is a bitch but you know I will always be here for you right? and that I will always throw you a life vest when you feel like drowning. Got your back for always. =)

That Moment When You Get The Urge To Write Something But Not Sure What To Post

Do you ever get that feeling or the urge to write something even if you are researching for something important? It’s like your brain wants you to write when it really doesn’t know what to post. I am feeling it at the moment. My mind made me open my blog and write something… Anything that my brain says… And right now, all you read is my brain functioning so fast I might edit this later cause I am not really sure if I am typing it all right. It’s like the words are passing through my brain in the speed of light. Crazy. I am usually a quiet person who finds it hard to just share whatever it is I am thinking. I usually can’t put my thoughts into words perfectly. They always end up being said into something basic. I am a deep thinker yet I wish I can share whatever it is I am thinking all the time. Especially the positive thoughts.

Anyway, what should I write? I¬†am quite sure¬†this is going to end up as a non sense post. Because I keep blabbering. ¬†This post’s title will probably be, what comes to mind when you just feel like posting something but can’t think of something sensible enough to write. hehe oh well, enough of this… Maybe I just need to concentrate more so I can write something sensible. Dear brain, please function properly…

Planning Out Dubai Trip

I was assigned to work on our itinerary for our¬†upcoming Dubai trip. At first, I was so excited to do it only to realize that it is quite difficult for a spontaneous kind of girl to plan. lol I know nothing much about Dubai that is why I am doing a research to check out the places that MUST be visited. I kind of don’t like planning because I like getting lost and finding unexpected places that a lot of tourists don’t see. It feels like I have a secret with the country. But isn’t it crazy how I am searching for restaurants where they serve the best food? LOL Oh and of course, never forget Shake Shack burgers!!! Well my bestfriend is¬†not a huge fan of burgers but she can’t stop talking about Shake Shack so THIS IS ME PROMISING TO NEVER LEAVE DUBAI WITHOUT HAVING A TASTE OF MY BEST FRIEND’S IDEA OF BEST BURGERS. hehe But then again, I have to do lots of Cardio so I can burn out some cholesterol (really, cholesterol, because I do not want to lose weight) before flying to the wonderful United Arab Emirates.

Anyway, back to our itinerary, we’re planning to visit Burj Khalifa, Burj Al Arab, IBN Battuta Mall, Skiing inside the mall, Desert Safari, Souk Madinat, Jumeirah Beach, Skiing inside the mall, Ferrari World in Abu Dhabi. Anyone here who can suggest more places to see in Dubai and Abu Dhabi? By the way, we are planning to visit Oman for a day or two but the problem is, we’re not sure if we¬†still need to get a visa back to Dubai after visiting Oman. Anyone who can help us figure it out?

Oh well, enough blogging. I got to finish this itinerary and will blog about the trip soon! Laters! ūüėČ

20 Random Questions

1. If your friend was cheating on their spouse, do you think you should tell their partner?

-I’m not in the right position to divulge it to¬†the partner but I would talk to my friend and let him/her know that what s/he’s doing is not right¬†and s/he needs to stop acting like an immature kid and just stop¬†cheating if not, tell him/her that s/he needs to tell his/her partner, give my friend an ultimatum or else I, myself, will tell the spouse.

2. Do you prefer to travel or stay close to home?

I prefer to travel. I like the adventure. =)

3.¬†What’s the worst thing you can say on a first date?

I break people’s hearts.

4. Do you prefer talking over the phone or face to face?

depends on the person. Face to face with people I am close with but I am always too shy over the phone. lol

5.¬†If you knew you couldn’t fail, what would you do?

Set up businesses and travel the world the way I want to.

6. Do you have any pets?

four adorable dogs. =)

7. What is your favorite smell?

mixed smell of beer and cigarettes. and the sweet smell of my hair treatment cream. Oh and Pizzzzza!

8. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?

I am currently addicted to ube pastillas and cookie dough ice cream. But I love any ice cream flavor. 

9. Where did you grow up?

born and raised in Pampanga, Philippines

10. Would you rather go without junk food for a year or go without TV for a year?

Believe it or not, I can live without TV nor junkies. hehe I don’t really watch TV and I am not a huge fan of¬†junk foods. ūüėČ

11. What is your biggest concern about the future?

Having to face this world without all those who were a part of my childhood.

12. What do you like to do on a rainy day?

-eat, snuggle on my comforter and sleep while watching a movie perhaps.

13. If you could meet anybody in history, past or present, who would it be?

Jesus Christ, Pope Francis, Pope John Paul, Dalai Lama, Adam Levine 

14.¬†What’s the first thing you notice about a guy?

I’m not sure. Maybe the eyes??

15. If you could give one piece of advice to the whole world, what would it be?

Be kind and forgive people even if they are not sorry.¬†No one knows what someone is going through or the real reason why someone did something terrible to you. We deal with different circumstances, and you just have to understand that people make mistakes and all you need to do is forgive them and wish them well for your own heart’s peace.

16. What is something that makes you smile?

happy memories, sky, stars, clouds, smell of rain

17. What do you miss most about being a kid?

getting to do whatever I want without thinking of the future.

18. Do you prefer cats or dogs?

Dogs, ofcourse!

19. Is it harder to exercise more or eat healthier?

eat healthier!!!

20. Describe your perfect day.

Quietly staring at the sky or stargazing while contemplating about life and realizing how blessed I am to even exist.

The Fall

I love the sky. Everything about it.

The flock of birds flying before sunset

the rays of the sun

the airplanes passing by

the way the clouds roll in before it starts raining

the droplets of rain after months of drought

the wonderful sight of a rainbow that makes the sky extra interesting

the twinkling stars in the darkness of night.

When life gets frustrating and I need to calm myself,

I would look up. I would stare at the clouds

I would appreciate how they form into different shapes

and how hard they resist to be even blown by the wind.

Everything about the sky fascinates me. The sky is my home.

It makes me smile

As it takes all my worries away.

but then I came across the ocean

the wonderful horizon that eats up the sun

the depth that easily became one of my fears

the killer sharks and mermaid tales

the waves that can eat you up.

The ocean is dangerous and scary.

Once I jump off the cliff, I know there is no turning back.

It is either you drown or you swim against the waves

I jumped anyway without any assurance that the fall would be worth it

I fell staring up to the sky

The fall was wonderful, exhilirating even

unfamiliar but it feels like home

Well, it is home cause no matter how hazardous it is to jump off a cliff

I felt completely safe

I never felt happier

Do you know the feeling of flying on earth happy?

That is how I felt. No matter how weird that sounded

I was so focused into my own world that I did not know the fall was so short

I fell… Hard… into the ocean

Or it’s more of I flew… I flew in love

But for the first time in my life

I can completely say that the fall was worth it.

And if there is a chance to do it for the second time

I will do it

again…

and again…

and again…

Midnight thoughts

I run. That is what I do best. The second I start getting too close to someone, I run away. I have even built walls to keep people at a distance. To protect myself from misery. But getting through my wall is what makes me run fast and far. I have this irrational fear of getting too close to someone because I believe that everyone has the capacity to hurt you, but it’s the people you love that can crash you the most. I hate getting hurt. I hate crying. I hate getting left out. I hate feeling weak. I like to believe I am invincible. That nothing can break me apart. But life does not work that way, does it? The higher you stand, the harder it will push you down. The louder you laugh, the harder it will make you cry. You come near me, I leave. You step a little closer, I run so far. Finding a home in something unfamiliar terrifies me so I keep my distance. I run, you run with me. I push you away but you are very determined to stand up and run with me. Well, if you want to get lost,¬†follow me. I’d like to think you are here for all the wrong reasons but I cannot keep denying the fact that you are apparently here for the right ones. But if you are too tired to run with me, just wait… because no matter what happens, I will always run home.

Spreading Positivity Through The Internet

It’s a really nice thing that I actually¬†don’t have much work to do at night anymore that I finally found time for myself. To just think¬†about life in general. And to write my thoughts out here! (Yay!) Well, here it goes…

I have been thinking of social media the past few hours. People say it connects people from all over the world. It creates bridges. But what they do not really mention is that most of the time, it builds a gap. A great divide. A huge one. I have been using Facebook, Twitter, Instagram for how many years. And as I look back, I realized how much has changed from the very first time I posted up to now. I have seen people fight over petty things on Facebook. I have seen people cuss and rant on Twitter. And definitely saw how people bashed celebrities or even just the people they don’t really like on social networking sites. I am guilty of it. You are guilty of it. We all are.

My posts changed for the better ever since I challenged myself to become a better person and to spread positivities instead of negativities. I realized that being hateful and angry won’t do me good. That getting upset won’t even take me places.

So, this is me, taking a step. making a start. Encouraging and challenging you to think before you click. To pause before you post. And to make a difference. Turn your rants into something that may brighten up someone’s day. Be kind. Let others get infected with optimism. Opt to make someone smile every day and inspire others to do the same. =)

Hello world!

Well hello there WordPress and readers! This is my first post and I am still trying to understand how this website works. I am even thinking of writing you an open letter but how would I if I know nothing much about you. If there’s one thing I would do, it would be to learn everything about you. I can not wait for my hands to type or write every little thing my mind is thinking. Every little thing my heart is feeling. Every annoying selfie I will be taking. Every wonderful photos I’m going to capture (not that I am an excellent photographer) yadda, yadda.

This marks my official post and I vow to write as much as I can. I promise to share how I view this world. To share my smiles, my tears, my happiness and sadness. This is not going to be easy for me but I know it will do me good to just release my emotions through a pen or through my keyboard. I can’t wait for that time when I can easily write whatever is going through my mind.

Cheers to a lifetime of sharing memories! ūüôā

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